I’ve listened to a lot of interview podcasts, you probably have too. Most of the time the interviewer is asking about the guest’s story…how they got to where they are.
One commonality to every one of those interviews is that no one ever claims to have been an insider…rather, everyone talks about how they’ve always felt like an outsider.
(Even after having success, they still feel like an outsider, like an imposter.)
So if that’s the way you feel too, you join the ranks of some pretty good company.
But feeling like an insider or outsider (and oscillating between the two) pales in importance to simply deciding to do the work and deciding to make an important contribution.