When you think you’re on the list, you act like you’re on the list, you walk up to security like you’re on the list, you give your name to the security guard with the confidence of someone who is on the list…and you’re not on the list. That is a humbling moment.
Because security doesn’t care what you thought, or what was suppose to happen.
You’re not on the list. Now, not only are you not on the list, but you don’t have an actual ticket because you thought you were on the list. So you can’t even get inside.
So you get out your cell phone and try to think who you can call or text who can fix this.
Now that you’ve thought of that person, you have to consider if they have their phone with them or not. What if it’s on silent? What if it’s far far away from them? How many times should you call? Should you text? Are you being bothersome? If you’re bothersome will they just screen your calls and texts and not help you?
Oh it’s frantic alright.
You had a lot of swagger coming into this situation, but it’s all gone now.
You have your cool outfit on cause you were on the list and going to be backstage all night, but now you are sitting on the ground cause you’ve been standing for so long and your legs got tired. So your cool outfit now has a dirty butt section. And you’re probably sweating from the anxiety.
Finally your “in” texts you back, with the over all gist being “I’ll try”.
More sitting. More sweating. More you hoping the security guard will just let you in. More the security guard not any closer to letting you in.
Just when you’re about to shamefully walk back to your car, your friend in the band, or your friend who knows someone in the band comes and gets you.
You’re mad. Very mad. But you can’t show it.
Over the course of the night you try and get your backstage-I’m-with-the-band swagger back. And you do for the most part. But every time you walk by that security guard, you know that he knows that you know he knows what you both know.
Cheers to the list.
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